Run into the darkness

Grieving… so much of the time feels dark and heavy.

A friend has a book and it talks about running into the darkness to chase the light. God is there through the darkness holding us in His arms till we find the light.

I find that I’m running into the darkness again. I’m grieving my late husband again as an 18 month relationship has come to an end, because if Rob hadn’t gone to Heaven I wouldn’t be in the dating world. If Rob were here cherishing me and loving me as Christ loved the church I wouldn’t be suffering a broken heart again. I’m grieving what I thought that 18 month relationship was.

People will let us down but our Heavenly Father never does. I know we are all human, and all sin and make mistakes, but some people purposefully sin daily, laughing in God’s face while they pray, read their devotionals and scripture.

All I can say is that its hurt people that hurt people. I can’t imagine the depths of his pain that caused him to do the things he did. But my friends God wastes nothing.

I have to own that I didn’t listen to my gut and my friends. BUT God answered my prayer with the FULL truth. I love God moments. Moments when you know it’s only because of Him that something happened.

“You shall know therefore that Yahweh your God, He is God, the faithful God, who keeps His covenant and His lovingkindness to a thousand generations with those who love Him and keep His commandments;”

Father, no matter what brings the darkness today please grant us the strength to run into the darkness chasing the light that is at the end. Help us to know you are holding us in your loving arms through the darkness. That the light we are chasing is Your perfect peace.