I had an interesting thing happen Thursday. I was sitting in my Christian Women Business Organization luncheon and we were all giving our 30 second promotional. A guest stood up and said who she was and she is with a local hospital. I tuned out, not just because it’s a hospital and I spent way too much time in them from June of 16 – Feb of 17, but because of which hospital it was. You see, I have baggage, I have anger because of what happened to Rob and I at that hospital.
In the next second she is saying she’s my prayer partner for the month! Yep and “oh xxxx” kind of moment. I try very hard to live in God’s grace moment to moment. However, that is difficult when we feel we are justified in our anger and we want to be angry. I’m angry over something that happened in July of 2016 and it’s now September of 2018. I’ve put it aside, not stewed on it…. but when the moment presents the anger is there.
Today I was in a God’s Grace moment, because a moment after she said my name I realized I get to heal. I get to let the anger go. I get to be an advocate for Rob and I, and for many others. Will anything really change? I don’t know and I may never know, but I know I get the opportunity to try and make a difference.
She came up to me to schedule. I took a deep breath and told her I really do need to talk with her. I gave her enough details, while telling her what had just happened with me in those moment to moment steps. With tears in her eyes she said she was sorry, that she didn’t one anyone to have the experience we did (and she doesn’t even know the full story yet.) She’s looking forward to hearing the full story. I can tell she knows that hearing me out will be healing for me, and that it has the potential to help others.
Are you living in the moment to moment of God’s grace? Are you listening and looking for God to show up? He does!!! And we miss it too much of the time.
Zeph 3:17 The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness; He will quiet you by His love; He will exult over you with loud singing.
This verse says what happened to me today! He quieted my anger, and gave me a place to release it – to be heard. He’s rejoicing with me because of what this will do for me, how i will heal, and how it will help others. He’s also rejoicing and exulting over me because I was looking for Him and I saw Him in the moment.
Father, may we live moment by moment because You are in our midst. You seek to save us physically and spiritually. Anger has no place in our life without destruction. Neither does fear. Father when we are seeking you MOMENT BY MOMENT, anger and fear don’t have a chance. Help us to seek You every moment. Thanks for the redemption that comes when we do! Amen
Grace Under Pressure 
Sweet Tammie, sometime we go through these difficult times wondering where God is and we only know that we are to trust Him. It sounds like you now have the opportunity to perhaps help others due to your relationship with your new friend. We don’t always understand how God is working in our life until maybe years later and we can use that painful experience now in ways we could not imagine at the time. We are going through Joyce Meyer’s book called Unshakeable Trust and this is one of the lessons she is teaching us. I’ve watched you help so many people due to the experiences you’ve lived through and this is another one of those times. May God bless you as you continue through the grief and healing process and know that you are loved.
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